Okay, so I don't have a desk. My face will have to meet my lovely little coffee table instead!
There is a t-shirt that reads, "I can only please one person per day. Today isn't your day and tomorrow isn't looking good either". I think that this has become my LIFE.
Seriously. If somebody is happy with me for one second on their own accord, there's two or three other pissed at me for various reasons.
I got hired on as a person with full time availability at my job. I didn't really have a set schedule, as I was literally able to work anything and everything. I was never late, I picked up extra shifts on my days off, stayed for 13 hour shifts because other people either called in sick, didn't show up, or just wanted to go home earlier than scheduled. I never had a problem with any of this.
And then all of a sudden I had the opportunity to apply for a shift manager position. I was pulled aside by the owner and told the only reason another person was getting it was because she had the physical experience working on the kitchen of that particular restaurant.
(Of course, never mind that I have a DEGREE in culinary and business management, have worked as a store manager in retail, and have been working professionally cooking off and on since 2007. Pffft. Nope, don't bother taking that into account at all.)
I understood his reasoning, and continued to work away just as hard as ever. But then everything changed... I was taken off mid-shifts and placed on breakfast.
Full time. That's a 6:30 am to 2:30 pm shift five days a week, minimum.
Without. My. Consent.
I was literally just shoved into the breakfast position without being asked or even so much as TOLD it was happening.
That was six months ago. I have since had exactly TWO shifts other than a breakfast shift, and have done multiple shifts where I have come back in after my working day was done to fill in for other people calling in sick.
Six months of getting up at 4:45 am to get ready and walk 2.5 km to work.
Over the last month I have been growing increasingly frustrated with work and the people therein. I have been bullied since I got there, but for the most part I have been able to manage it myself. I have gone to the owner three times for three different people and gotten very little in the way of results, so I just put up with some of the crap now. I am getting to the point where if somebody so much as eyeballs me funny, I'm getting ready to throw punches.
I have not been sleeping well, poor eating habits for a month solid now, and a general sense of constant frustration. I had to almost beg to get my password and sign in so I could do the online kitchen training for my job. I have had that completed for almost a month now, and I have yet to be trained formally in the kitchen, with the exception of an hour and a half the sunday before last. That was only because my favorite supervisor told me if I came in earlier for another co-worker than scheduled, she would haul me into the kitchen. It was nice to get to do some cooking for a change.
It's frustrating to the point that I am ready to start looking for another job. I don't know if it is honestly time to move on... but I'm angry. I'm hurt. I feel frustrated. I'm tired of being bullied and talked to like a lazy idiot. And what's worse is that now I'm training a new girl.
So now I'm getting a whole lot more shit because I'm training her.
Let's get something straight: I didn't tell anybody to hire her. I suggested she was a good candidate due to my former supervisor recommending her for the job. She has proved to be a great worker and she learns very fast. I have never once said that she can do something that she can't.
She is also in her third week of training. I have had her for a week on breakfast shifts with me, and she is doing phenomenally well for learning her first job EVER. She is learning very fast, takes initiative to get things ready is gaining more confidence taking orders and moving about on her own. It's the same with most new employees, they need their hands held a bit before they can run on their own entirely.
I don't mind that.
But what's upsetting is that I will hopefully be put back onto some mid-shifts.. and now people are cheesed off at me for THAT too. Saying that they will be pissed and have a serious problem if I "steal their hours".
I'm sorry, there are plenty of hours to go around. We have lost two full time positions that need to be filled, both were supervisors. That's a guaranteed 35-40 per week that need the filling! So no, I'm not "stealing" anybody's hours.
I'm also having serious doubts I will ever GET the promotion for the next round. I know that there has been talk of giving it to me, but I am seriously doubting it. There is only ONE person there that spends the time in training me further and gives a rat's ass if I stay or leave. That's a lot luckier than many jobs in the wide world, but I'm really effing tired of all the bull.
Somebody is ticked off with me every single damn day. And then they have the balls to wonder why I'm more sarcastic and downright ready for a fight? All the time?
Jeeze Louis. Give me a damn break.
How about they get off my ass for a change? Maybe I wouldn't be reactive and ready to nail the next jerk that messes with me. I have lost all tolerance for others.... and that's a dangerous thing.
In the end, somehow it will all work out. But in the meantime, I'm seriously thinking about browsing the job market.
Mood: Not Impressed
Listening to: Supernatural
Reading: Arctic Drift
Watching: The screen
Eating: Vegetable soup
Drinking: Tea when the kettle boils